Demon...Demon...Demon, I'm a demon

I found out that I'm becoming a demon gradually. I'm cold-hearted, narrow-minded, bad-hearted, a bully, mean, stingy, vain, revengeful, bossy, hot-tempered, a gossiper and many more until it is uncountable and endless. What a horrible demon I am.

This cruel world has made me become a demon, a monster, I won't deny that I was a simple-minded, innocent and naive girl before. The movie I watched, the people I'm closed to and the facts I had seen before make me feel that is not easy to be a kind-hearted person. People always say " Do things without asking any reward". I'm sorry, I can't be that greatful. I helped people without asking anything but if the one whom I helped before betray me or treat me badly, then I will remember that I helped him before and feel that he shouldn't treat me like that. And this make me is said to be too particular about trifles, narrow-minded and revengeful.

As the saying goes: " 好心给雷劈" so I would rather be a villain. At least I won't complain why I'm treated badly because these are what I deserved.


I wish I could be a baby again, so innocent and so simple-minded. If I couldn't be a baby again then I wish I could be a changeling, an idiot, so that I no need to bother about what happen to this world, no need to study, and even other people are fooling with me I also don't know. How peaceful is the world~

Penang & Langkawi Trip ( Day 1 Part 2)

When we were about to shop in duty free shops, the driver dropped us off beside the beach as Felicia aunt required. The beach was quiet and peaceful, there were only two kids swimming naked, two malay lady and three Caucasian and us as well.

My mother went to Langkawi was because of a covered Dutch Oven. So, we went to a duty free shop before we ended our Langkawi trip. Haha...the happiest person was me because I can ask my mother to buy any CHOCOLATE I like without looking at the price.

Lady Gaga??? Fly with a human body???

After finished doing our shopping, we had to rush to the jetty to take the ferry back to Alor Setar then take a taxi ride back to Penang again. When we arrived the jetty, it was still early so we took a few photos at the Langkawi Square where the Eagle is.

Waiting for my lover? Haha...I don't have a lover~

I love the sunlight again...Am I potential and talented enough to be a professional photography?

In Penang

After 2 hours of journey, we reached Penang finally. The first thing we did was find some food to fill our hungry stomach. We went to a food court where is in Gurney Drive. My father ordered Chu Cheong Fan, my mother and I ordered Asam Laksa and my sister have Kuey Tiaw. Wow, those are really Gourmets. Not long after, we went back to our hotel (Eastin Hotel). I love this hotel so much, the service is good, the room is good, the view from there is good and the facilities are good too. There are Lounge Bar which I was absorbed so much to it. Unfortunately, I didn't have the chance to get in it. But, I had got some picture of it.

There are live band performance from 8 to 12 midnight.

Penang & Langkawi Trip ( Day 1 Part 1)

My family and I and also my mother's friend with her 3 children went to Langkawi and Penang on 28/11/09 until 29/11/09. We went to Langkawi on the 1st day. Well, we went to Penang first by plane. I woke up at 3am then went to KLIA airport. The plane took off at 6.55 am. Wow, is good to take off in the morning because the view was so beautiful when the sun rose and you can see the clouds were coloured by orange. Wow, so nice! Next time if I have the chance to travel by plane, I definitely will depart in the morning or night.


After we arrived at Penang International Airport, we went to our hotel to put down our luggage first then we went to Langkawi. The journey to Langkawi was so long.

In Langkawi
I heard the driver said there are a performance for jet. I am not quite sure when it is. The sound was killing me. I heard what he talked to my father, he said that the sound that is produced by jet fighter can kill a baby. So horrible~luckily my brother is no longer a baby anymore. Thank God!

UFO??? Quite alike...

We passed by the seaside when we wanted to take a ride on cable car. There were so many yacht. It's so beautiful and made me want to own one then take it to the sea.

What a pretty petrol station...

Not long after, we reached the cable car there, taking photo at the Oriental Village. The day was sunny and I almost got myself burn. We didn't take the cable car because those aunties said that it's expensive and because of this, we just went to the free entrance tiny little zoo. There are deers, rabbits, elephants and so on but my brother and those kids seem like quite enjoyed themselves there.Then, we went to Telaga Tujuh Waterfall. It's so tiring to reach the waterfall but it's worth. The view was so nice until you don't want to leave.

There are many bikini girls. Wow, I think those boys are very happy.

I like the sunlight so much...

To be continued...

We Women Are Not Born To Be Bullied !

We women are not born to be bullied!

Why did I so with anger? Is it because I'm a girl and I'm totally will be a woman in the future?

No, absolutely no. That's because I read an email which my mother sent it to me this morning and it is about the indonesian guy raped only the chinese girl on 14th May of 1998. This is cruel, illegal, immoral and not sympathy for the weak. I'm not boasting, this is the proof !

How can this cruel thing happen on Earth and on women? This is so unfair! Men use their strength to do this kind stupid thing. I despise you all ! You all are scum ! You all are despicable! This doesn't prove anything but only your stupidity. Is it that high and fun to rape a girl? Do men think that being rape is good and enjoy? Then, what about if I rape you all ( if I were a man and men were women)? I'm sure you all are being raped reluctantly.

If possible, I will invent something which will make only a girl or a woman fight with enemy effectively without learning any martial arts. If this thing really exist, I will make sure that only female can possess or use it and it doesn't affect in man's body. Besides that, if this thing is being misused and the user will have to pay for it.

For women sake, I must study hard for my Science subjects. WE WOMEN ARE NO LONGER A WEAKER.

An Essay Practice Before English Exam

The time passed away in seconds. With a blink of an eye, I need to face Form 4 final exam and after 2 to 3 months, I'm Form 5 already. A new challenge~SPM.

This PMR holiday, I didn't have the intention to study for my final exam. Why am I so lazy since I was born?

Today, I just had my Moral and BM exam. Well, this is the first time I recite well all the 36 nilai murni. So miracle! I don't want to fail my Moral again. It's so ashamed for me to fail my Moral. For my BM test, Part B, I chose a very high risk title to write. The question is isu pengabaian warga tua and ask us to discuss about the reason why these senior citizens are abandoned. My points is repeated and repeated. I have no idea what to write. But I still managed to " vomit" some idea. Great right?



To all my beloved friends:

Do well in your exam! Good luck~

Was I Too Gentle Or Too Patience?

Boring is used to describe my Form 4 student life, especially these two to three months. Study for a week, holiday. It seems like no need to study. I still went to school today although holiday again after study for one more week. The time passed like centuries. Damn boring.

Things went smoothly today. I thought I need to be drenched by the rain but fortunately the God love me so much, He stopped the rain before I walked to tuition. Thank God!

After I had my mathematics tuition, I thought my mother will be waiting for me outside the centre. She turned me down. I was thinking that she was busy or something happened to her and made her couldn't fetch me on time. My class finished at 6.15 pm and I had waited my parents for about AN HOUR at there. The students was getting less and less, the day became darker and darker and I can see the stars clearer and clearer. I wanted to cry but cry at public places is not that good, right?

My father came at 7.15 pm, I couldn't stand and my tears dropped down in front of my father. He didn't scold me, perhaps he knew that I really had waited that long for him. My tears kept dropping all the way back to home.

I asked my mother why she didn't come to fetch me as usual. She said my father thought that the one who finished the class at 6.15 pm is my sister not me. Oh Gosh~luckily my father cooked my favourite " water egg", because at that moment, only this egg can warm my heart and my body after a long waiting.

Finally, I'm 16

I'm a 16-year-old teenager from 23/09/2009 until 22/09/2010. It was good to celebrate my birthday with my friends although some of them are busy and couldn't spend their time with me on my birthday but at least they had sent their greetings to me. So touching!

Sopo, Kah Yin, Yao Ming and I went to Jusco Cheras Selatan to sing K at 1 pm. Because it was still early and I wanted to watch Where Got Ghost, so I watched the movie with Kah Yin at 11.30am first. The movie was really scary but funny. So funny until I can roll my body on the floor.

Later then, we went to greenbox to sing K. We were extremely crazy. The funniest part is that when we sang Love Story by Taylor Swift, we changed the lyrics like when she sang Romeo we sang Juliet and when she sang you'll be the prince and I'll be the princess, we changed to I'll be the prince and you'll be the princess. Besides that, the poker face and uptown girl was very funny too.

After that, me, kah yin and sopo went to Secret Recipe just to eat a piece of cake. Kah Yin ordered a chocolate indulgence while I ordered a chocolate strawberry. Not bad just a little sweet.

After we had our cake, sopo said want to go to Orange to take photo with those beautiful clothes. We took many clothes and the shopkeeper there were staring at us but we just ignored them. How cheeky we were.

Asking The Deceased （问米）

Well, I woke up at 5.30 in the morning and get up myself ready to the temple. I offered myself to go to the temple and surprisingly my mother permitted me to go with her.

Before that, she would never let me go to the graveyard during Qing Ming to clean our ancestor grave, and because of that I have never been to the graveyard till now. Even when we passed through any funeral, my parents would call me not to see but my mother would definitely say something in the car to my father, she said: "Ohh, this is whose relatives. He has died? My god, he is just only 6++years old. Pity! " . Every time when I heard what she said, I laughed loudly inside my heart. They asked us not to see but they will join in. They not allow us to watch maybe is because they scare us will have nightmare at night, but children are always curious.

When I went to ask the dead with my mother, uncle and aunties, they asked my grandfather first but unfortunately my grandfather was not in a good mood so he didn't want to talk with us. However, my grandmother was kind and even the Guanyin niang niang also said that she will smile when she meet someone. I imagined that when a ghost smile to me, although he is well-intentioned but it will be very horrible.

What made me so happy is that my grandmother knew who I am even though she had passed away 16 years ago and all this time I had never been to her grave. I thought that she couldn't recognize me. The last time she saw me was 16 years ago when I was still a baby crying like killing the pig. Because of crying, my mother ever thinking of throwing me away when I was still a few months old, my grandmother told my mother not to do this because she will get what she deserved next time. The right way of saying this is that, my grandmother saved my life. No grandmother no Sheau Wen.

The funniest thing that happened is my mother, my uncle and my aunty asked my grandmother for the lottery number. She told them and asked them to open their hands to receive the luck I think. Actually, talking to the deceased is not that horrible like what I imagined before. Next time, if I have the opportunity, I will go and greet my grandmother and talk with her. Love my grandmother always.

The Ghost Festival 中元节（鬼节）

Tomorrow is the day which the ghost door open and the dead people will visit the living. To prevent "they" visit you, you can burn some "dead people's money", offer some food to them, and if possible please stay in your house and go to bed earlier, no more going out during the night, no more mountain hiking, no more swimming, no more jungle tracking, no more watching TV, no more MSN online, no more dota after 12.00 a.m.

Or else

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!

We Are 1 Malaysia

Happy birthday to Malaysia. We have been independent for 52 years already. Malaysia has many different kinds of races, cultures and also delicious food. I like Baba and Nyonya cuisine the most. Baba and Nyonya cuisine is the mix of Malay and Chinese cuisine. Besides that, only a few natural disasters will happen in Malaysia. And what I feel the proudest to Malaysia is that we can speak many kinds of language like Malay, Chinese, English, Cantonese, Hakka, Hokkien and so on. We are 1 Malaysia. Happy Merdeka!

I saw a news from the TV yesterday. They reported that a British man rather gave up his nationality and become a Malaysian. Although Malaysia is good, but for me, I would rather be a British girl, blonde with blue eyes, high nose and fair skin. England has 4 seasons, well-developed technology, good manners, a well-known country, many famous football teams and football player and the most important is the universities there are so well-known like Oxford, Harvard, Cambridge and so on. England's life has always been my dream life. How much I desired to live in western country, how much I desired to be a foreigner. Although I love western countries more than Malaysia, if compare with those Islam countries, I prefer Malaysia more.

Last, watch these 15 Malaysia film which are made by Malaysian. I like Potong Saga and Halal the most for now.